Day 184 - Happiness

It's now been six months since I went through with the decision to have bariatric bypass surgery.

I've had people ask me if I feel better.

"Better?" How do you quantify that?

For me, there are no words. I don't feel "better." I feel like a completely different person. I've rediscovered the youthful vigor I had in high school. My personality has returned to what it used to be when I was a kid (albeit a tad more cynical and not nearly as naive.) I don't physically struggle to do things now.

Over the weekend I was reflecting on how bad things used to be and how unhappy I was. I had a wife that loved me unconditionally. I had two beautiful children that were healthy. I had a home to live in and a job that compensated me well. With all those major life "things" right, I still felt wrong. I was horribly depressed because I knew how badly I looked. I knew how badly I felt. The lack of self-esteem was affecting every facet of my life.

These days, things are vastly different.